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BULLSHIT! [Monday
›June 15th, 2009 at 6:37pm‹]
Listen to this bullshittery: In 2007, I was able to get a cell phone the day I applied for the alien registration card with only the certificate proving I applied. Now in 2009, you need the actual card, which isn't going to be ready until July 6!! I've been dying without a cell phone for three days. How the hell am I supposed to live without ANY phone for almost three weeks?? I'm going to have to complain to my company tomorrow. Oh Americans and their complaints.

In other news, I've moved into my apartment. It's short on space in terms of where to put stuff. My clothes should be fine, but I'm trying to figure out where to put my beauty products and cleaning supplies. I still need to buy a lot of stuff (cups, bowls, hangers, a MIRROR for the sake of pete), but I'm not really sure where to get those things. In Hachioji, I always had Daiei to fall back on. There's apparently one in Akabane, but it's not too convenient. I guess Daiei wasn't convenient before either. Also, I took a little walk to the grocery store. It's really...insufficient. On the plus side, there's a ton of meat. Like, more kinds of meat than I knew existed. However, there's not much else that I really like to eat other than various noodles, rice, and veggies. No fast breakfast stuff. I'm going to have to learn how to cook.

Anyway, I like being on the fifth floor here. Ok, I was about to say, "I can leave my slider door open to let air in." But then I saw a cat climbing on the roof across the way. That's just what I need: grabbing some stray cat, thinking it's Sofie, and getting a nice case of cat scratch fever (is that even real?)

Oh, and I was so tired yesterday, I didn't even try to get tickets to see Buck-Tick in Yokohama. Yeah, I'm too cool to go to lives now. Plus they're playing twice at NHK Hall, which is a lot easier/faster to get to from here. And I really need to use my money sparingly since I'm not getting paid until July 20. The month of July better be a frickin sweet month for me.

IN JAPAN! This avatar is actually how I look right now. [Friday
›June 12th, 2009 at 5:40pm‹]
I'm here. I'm foreign. Get used to it. I know that does rhymn, but I'd like to personally welcome myself to Japan. I did it all by my lonesome. I'm in a hotel right now and will move in to my apartment on Sunday. I'm not quite sure what to do with myself in the meantime. Peering out the 26th story window here, I don't really see many restaurants (I was hoping for a Kura) and I'm scared to wander. Ikebukuro Station is apparently 15 minutes form here, but we'll see. Anyway, I'm tired and can't think. Boo to that noisy family who wouldn't shut up.
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I'm leaving on a jet plane, but not with JET, bitches! [Wednesday
›June 3rd, 2009 at 10:45pm‹]
So I got my Certificate of Eligibility in the mail today (finally! how did 4 weeks turn into 6?). I immediately ran to the Japanese Consulate. Well, not RAN, but drove to the train station, took the train, and walked to the consulate. That was officially the shortest time I've ever spent in New York. I arrive at 1:40 and took the 2:34 train back to Fairfield. Anyway, my visa will be ready on June 8 if there aren't any problems. So once that's done, I'm flying out, hopefully that week. That's right. This weekend might be my last weekend in the States for awhile! It's so bizarre to think that way, I know, but I prefer things to be done fast.

As for my apartment, I'm using Sakura House to find something semi-temporary, fully furnished, utilities included, free internet and the like. It's expensive, but totally reasonable. I don't think you can get an apartment like that in lil' ol' Connecticut for $800, let alone Tokyo. And the flights aren't too too bad. I'm looking at about $750, which I was expecting.

Anyway, Katie's coming up, which is going to be nice.
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Doctor Who: Silence in the Library Part II A.K.A. Don't Ask Don't Tell in the Library [Friday
›May 29th, 2009 at 10:01pm‹]
Last weekend was more fun than I've had in a long time. Joelle came down from Montreal! We spent Saturday just hanging out in the big CT (sarcasm), but Sunday was spent in New York. As we were getting on the platform in Fairfield, we caught up with an old buddy. That's right. DOCTOR WHO! Yup. We were so tight with Doctor Who. Oh, didn't you know? We were his companions. Yeah, I really didn't talk about it much and the season won't air until 2017, but it was mosh up, well good, cheerio, pip pip, etc.

Click for the Adventure )

OO WEE OOO!!!!
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GAMBIT? MORE LIKE.... LAME-BIT! [Tuesday
›May 5th, 2009 at 8:42pm‹]
Is anyone else ticked off by the portrayal of Gambit the latest X Men movie abortion? I don't know if it was the fact that I had to pee for the entire latter half of the movie or if Canadians just cannot pull off a Creole accent, but I was sourly disappointed. Granted, the action sequences were hot, though I don't know why everyone had the ability to leap a hundred feet in the air. But the whole on slot of "new" characters, while slightly satisfying at first, felt like a mere sampler of character development. I would've loved to see more of Gambit, Deadpool, or even the Blob! Is the studio trying to feel out who is ripe for yet another X Men sequel/prequel? We already know Magneto is in the works, and frankly, I'm more interested in his story than I was ever interested in Wolverine, especially after seeing that cliched revenge plot played out.

Anyway, light stuff aside, I've been in the stinker for the last few weeks. I got in not one, but TWO car accidents, one of which is costing me over $800 (thanks to insurance, it's not costing me the estimated $4600). Then my grandmother died on Sunday. Basically, her Alzheimer's was so severe you forgot how to swallow. Alzheimer's seems to be hereditary, though I'm betting certain environmental factors in her youth attributed to the severity of it. I really didn't know her very well. She seemed to not want to have much to do with my life or my brothers', despite the fact that we're her only grandchildren. I'm not bitter, just numb.

Back to being selfish, now I'm beginning to realize that I probably won't have enough money to fly to Japan and pay for my first two months rent of whatever apartment I can find. I'll be reimbursed by the company for both things, but I don't know how I'm going to pay for it initially. I have to ask my mom for a loan, but I certainly can't do that while she's grieving. What to do what to do.
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More definitive Japan-age [Wednesday
›April 8th, 2009 at 10:38pm‹]
The company wants me to start either May 16 or June 1. HOLY TYRA! That's so soon, I don't even know what to do with myself. Wait, I know what I need to do. A shit ton! Between the visa, finding an apartment, and all the mess in between and after, I'm in denial about all the work that needs to be done. However, I did figure out what to do with my car. I'm going to be a very generous sister by continuing to make payments on it while my brother uses it. Am I not the nicest person you know? Other than that, I have to cancel my brand-new phone serivce with Sprint, which will be hella expensive.

Anyway, I want to have some sort of self-centered going away party, since I'm terrible at making friends and want to say good-bye to the ones I have over here before I end up in a life alone. (But as Joelle and I always say, "Alone, but not lonely.") Who's up for a par-tay? I don't know exactly when and where, but probably the first week in May sounds good-ish.
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Epic Sex Battle [Tuesday
›March 10th, 2009 at 8:45pm‹]
Ok, I'm arguing with SOMEONE ([info]pinkladydiva) about who would be a better lay: GODLIKE DOCTOR MANHATTAN.. or wimpy edward cullen. HM GEE I WONDER. Could it be the guy who could do literally ANYTHING you want him to or the pussy vamp kid who is afraid to touch you for fear of "hurting you" (read: can't get it up)?

Anyway, I started the Watchmen graphic novel Monday, finished it today at around 2:30, and ran to the movie theater to watch the film. For those who are hardcore fans of the novel, how do you think it compared? After watching the film while the book was still fresh in my mind, I feel the audio/visual interpretation was quite close to the mood, plot, and characterization of the novel. Admittedly, if I hadn't read the novel, I would've been quite lost. I watched a review on REELZ channel earlier that noted that fans would be please, but new comers would find themselves scratching their noodles. How do you guys feel?
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Q-TIE! (Kyuutai) [Wednesday
›March 4th, 2009 at 7:24pm‹]
Could I be a total bother and ask someone who bought the limited edition A of Mucc's Kyuutai to upload the DVD? I like to relive concert memories through a camera lens rather than my own brain cells.
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WTF IS KANSHI? [Thursday
›February 19th, 2009 at 10:26pm‹]
I swear to FRICKIN' GOD! What is "kanshi?" I had my JET interview today, which was... meh. First of all, Dhakshila couldn't go with me, so in desperation to have SOMEONE prevent me from jumping off the top of the UBS building, I asked my dad to go. Big mistake. He makes me nervous and combative anyway. Add the stress of this interview and bam. Still, I tried my best to ignore it until we got to the train station and realized that our train had already left and the next one wasn't for another 30 minutes. Needless to say, I spent the whole train ride willing the train to move faster so I could arrive at Grand Central with at least 10 minutes to spare before my interview.

After rushing to the UBS building with about 7 minutes before the interview, I was escorted up to the consulate. The English portion of the interview was fine, even great. I was enthusiastic, answered eloquently and didn't hesitate at all. But then... the Japanese part. I was prepared to basically do the explaining why you want to go to Japan, etc. in Japanese. That I can do. Instead, I had to read a passage. Fine. I read it, understood it. Then they had me read it aloud. I fucked up a couple kanji, but whatever. He then asked me about three questions about the passage. None of which I could answer. None. Zero. I didn't understand his questions. He then asked me what Americans think about "kanshi."

Me: Kanshi?
Him: Yes.
Me: I don't understand "kanshi."
Him: *puts down his paper* (in English) Thank you for coming.

Look up "kanshi." I get "Chinese poetry" or "observation," both of which make no sense. Thinking about it now, I realized he must have said "kanji." Now he's thinking, "What a dumbass. She just read fuckin' kanji and she doesn't know what the word is!" Yes, my sentiments exactly.

As I was leaving, the guy told me in English that he graduated from Soka University. WHY COULDN'T HE HAVE TOLD ME THAT BEFORE? I really would've buttered up my love for the Founder and His Wife!

What pisses me off is that I can speak Japanese. I can. For the love of GOD if you've been studying a language for four years and lived in that country for one, you should have some grasp on it. But instead of being about to display ANY of my conversation skills, I only said ONE THING in Japanese. "Wakarimasen." I don't understand.

So yeah, I'm glad I bought a car and got a new cell phone because I'm going to be in the US for a looooong time.
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KARAOKE!! Update, etc. [Sunday
›January 25th, 2009 at 8:58pm‹]
First: ANYONE IN THE AREA UP FOR A KARAOKE DAY/NIGHT SOMETIME IN THE VERY NEAR FUTURE?

Second: Ok... So, I know I haven't posted in I don't even want to LOOK at how long, but here I am. I've been lurking, reading journals but rarely commenting, and trolling the iheart communities like a MB thirsty... troll! So here's what's new since I last posted:

I got a job.
I got my driver's liscence.
I got a car.
I got a penis! (No, you wish, though!)

I'm trying not to look at the negatives of all the above (except my new penis... there can't be anything bad about that!). So I won't even mention them here. Anyway, about my job. I work at a music store selling and doing minor repairs on musical instruments. So I didn't go to school for that, but at least it's a job I can do while I wait on JET or whatever I really want to do with my stupid degree in my stupid non-major with my stupid made up language (Japanese).

In other news, I'm really excited about Buck-Tick's new album. I sorely need new music.
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MOOO [Tuesday
›December 9th, 2008 at 1:30am‹]
Mucc was awesome. I was cold. I am tired. I am cold again. Mucc mucc mucc. Zetsubou.
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NANOWRIMO!!!! [Sunday
›November 30th, 2008 at 8:28pm‹]
I DID IT! FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER!!! I JUST crossed the 50,000 word point making me an honorary National Novel Writing Month WINNA! Now, many of you are saying, "Sarah, will you let us read your novel? Oh pretty please with a cherry on top?" My answer is a loud, obnoxious, "NO!" First of all, it's not finished yet. Second, it makes NO sense. I didn't do any editing, so there are major continuity issues. Perhaps I will one day finish it, even try to get it published. But until then, I'm leaving it alone. I don't ever want to see those characters again!
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BEHIND IN LJ HELP [Friday
›October 24th, 2008 at 2:10pm‹]
I'm so behind on LJ it's sad. Help me out! I hear rumors that SOMEONE deleted her journal. *cough*Dhak*cough*shila*cough*.

Don't even ask me about my life. It's so pathetic, I'm ready to throw in the towel.
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AVATAR?? [Tuesday
›September 9th, 2008 at 10:05pm‹]
Any takers for an Avatar Season 3 marathon? *smiles*
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I need something boring and mindless to post so no one will comment [Wednesday
›August 20th, 2008 at 10:15am‹]
Meme from Laura's LJ.

Wikipedia your birthday (June 28) and pick 4 events, 3 births, 2 deaths, and 1 holiday.

Events
1838 - The coronation of Victoria of the United Kingdom.
1914 - Franz Ferdinand, Archduke of Austria and his wife Sophie are assassinated in Sarajevo by young Serbian nationalist Gavrilo Princip , the casus belli of World War I.
1919 - The Treaty of Versailles is signed in Paris, formally ending World War I between Belgium, Britain, France, Italy, the United States and allies on the one side and Germany and Austria Hungary on the other side (WWI started and ended on the same day!?)
1994 - Members of the Aum Shinrikyo cult release sarin gas attack at Matsumoto, Japan, 7 persons killed, 660 injured.

Births
1491 - King Henry VIII of England
1712 - Jean-Jacques Rousseau, Swiss philosopher
1926 - Mel Brooks, American filmmaker(the funniest man on earth)

Deaths (no one cool died on my birthday)
1836 - James Madison, 4th President of the United States
1993 - GG Allin, American punk rock singer

Holiday
Vidovdan, Orthodox religious holiday commemorating St. Vitus
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Nostalgic [Sunday
›August 17th, 2008 at 9:30am‹]
I had a dream that I went back to my dorm in Japan temporarily. I picked up some of the things I left behind (namely: my Luna Sea towel - I left that behind because it was falling apart), and was greeted by some surprised dormmates. They said I could stay with them as long as I wanted, but I could only be there nine days as I had to return to the US. or I'd turn into a pumpkin or something. Still, Haikun made me food (which she always did), Eunji and I ignored each other (which we always did), and I just about cried (which I always did). It wasn't a very imaginative dream, and obviously a result of massive nostalgia, but it was kind of nice to remember my dorm like that. I feel like writing a sappy enka ballad to express my nostalgia, but I'll spare you the sap.

In many respects, I've Japanized myself. I'll never claim to be completely assimilated to Japanese culture, nor will I even come close to claiming I'm "Japanese," but there were a lot of aspects of Japanese mannerisms that I adopted. Bowing, for one, is something I have to fight myself not to do anymore. Then there's less obvious habits like avoiding honesty if it's going to hurt someone's feelings and things along those lines. Then of course there's shoving into trains and getting too close for comfort with the person next to you. It's funny because in Japan, I always felt like the big, dumb, straight-shooting, rude American. Here, I realized that I did assimilate to some extent. I think it's because I moved around so much as a child, I've learned to adapt quite easily to new environments, though Japan was probably the biggest stretch I'll ever experience (let's face it: Canada wasn't exactly a culture shock). But hey, that's not to say I'm not still that big, dumb, straight-shooting, rude American. You lookin' at me? So what you wanna fight about it? You feelin' lucky, are ya punk? ITADAKIMASU! Damnit, I am sooooooo Japanese.

In other news, I started my new job last week Monday. The commute is rather trying. 15 minute drive to the train station, an hour and twenty to forty minutes (spending on whether or not it's express) from Bridgeport to Grand Central, then another twenty or so minutes on the subway. I have my book and my muzix, but it's mostly the smell that bothers me. I hate to compare US public transportation to Japan, but really, the Japanese trains never smelled like cat piss and stale coffee. Sure, it often smelled like beer breath and cigarettes, but that smells like home to me now. And it's funny how Americans enjoy their personal space. The subway was a bit crowded on the way home Friday, so I shoved myself in like anyone would have to do in Japan. The people next to me tried desperately to move out of my way and I just pushed closer and closer, trying to reach for something to grab hold of. As I was reaching, some man gently took my wrist and placed my hand on one of the bars. I was like, "Oh, um, excuse me." I have a feeling I'm going to be making lists of weird things that have happened to me in the New York subway. On Wednesday, a little girl of about eight was staring at me, so I smiled. She then proceeded to give me the middle finger. Charming, I know.
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Back in the US [Saturday
›August 9th, 2008 at 10:32am‹]
As some of you know, I got back Tuesday and have since then gotten about three hours of sleep a night. Jet lag is brilliant, isn't it? I'm actually doing better than I did before. I realized that I've taken the Japan/US flight eight times in the last five years, so perhaps I've gotten used to it. Usually, I would fall asleep at five p.m. and wake up at three a.m. the next day. Last time I flew from the US to Japan, I slept from midnight until seven p.m. the next day. That was FUCKED. One of the reasons why I haven't been sleeping very long is because Katie, Allyson, and Dhakshila slept over the second night, Katie and Ally the third night, and then of course, there's my roommate. No, not my dad. In fact, he's away on business until Sunday.When he picked me up from the airport on Tuesday, he said, "Oh by the way, you have someone to keep you company."

Who, you ask? )

Her name is Sophie. My aunt is away for awhile and needs someone to take care of her cat. At first, I was apprehensive. This is the very cat who gave me that awesome scar on my right ring finger, making me look like some sort of badass when in actuality I tried to pick up a cat and got scratched. I learned my lesson never to try to pick her up, but otherwise she is the sweetest cat. She's the type of cat that looks like she's dying of delight every time you pet her. Since she needs constant lovin', she won't leave me alone. When I close my bedroom door, she just yowls into the night, trying to squeeze under the crack (which is actually kind of funny). When I let her in, she insists on sleeping on my chest directly in my face.

The only problem is that she sheds like mad, making my eczema flair up and irritating my eyes to the point where I can't wear contacts in the house. This leaves me looking like a big, scabby nerd, especially since I'm sitting her in my orchestra shirt from 2000 with my hair all messed up. I r winnar.

Other than my roommate, as I mentioned before, Katie, Allyson, and Dhakshila have been keeping me company. It's so good to see them after so long. Katie, Allyson, and I have been friends for about seven years, Dhakshila's now coming up on four if I recall. That's a record for me since I moved so much as a child and have a hard time staying in contact with people long distances. E-friends don't count because the Net was the catalyst that brought us together.

Anyway, I need to do some reflecting on my year in Japan. Here are some random things about being back in the US that make me glad to be here, miss Japan, and/or make me feel neutral about life in general:

+ I'm not afraid of calling up costumer services and such because now I can understand most everything they say. I say most everything because I do have my duh moments.

- No convenient public transportation. Since I don't have a car, this leaves me stranded at home. I got so used to the freedom of going off on my own that this is giving me major cabin fever.

+ I have my own kitchen and bathroom, both of which I can use at any time. The dorm was all shared, and the shower couldn't be used in the afternoon.

- I feel my Japanese slipping already. Dhakshila and Katie, can we have an hour where we just speak Japanese?

+/- The food is great (cheese!! turkey!! BBQ sauce!!), but I'm not used to the portion sizes or ingredients yet. Too much dairy leaves me... ugh.

+/- People no longer stare at me because I'm obviously foreign. However, I noticed that people are still staring at me. Self-esteem... up?

+ I'm not the fattest, tallest, or whitest girl in the town anymore!

+ Toto!!!!! Oh yeah, and Jason.

- Pressure to get a job, driver's license, everything.

+ Free food and phone for the time being.

+/- Speaking of which, new phone! My dad picked it out for me. It's one of those slide down thingies, which I'm not too fond of. I prefer flip phones. Plus it's really tiny. I have 30 days to trade it in, but I don't want to offend my dad. Still, free phone that I can use for booty calls. And I decided to name it Imai Baby since it reminds me of Imai in a way.

+/- How do I decorate my room? It's literally a blank canvas. Painting is not an option since my dad is moving in about 10 months.
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:D [Wednesday
›August 6th, 2008 at 1:37pm‹]
I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaack...
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MIRACLE OF MIRACLES! [Saturday
›August 2nd, 2008 at 3:25pm‹]
My 30 gig $250 video iPod which suddenly stopped working in February and despite many efforts seemed completely dead suddenly... started... working!! Or more like, I was cleaning out my desk and thought, "Couldn't hurt, right?" plugged it in. The screen lit up with the claim of "very low battery." I clutched my precious close to my chest and exclaimed, "Darling! Oh my darling, darling, darling precious!! You're alive!" In a weak, energy-starved voice, it replied, "Did... you... lose... hope?" I stroked its weary head and whispered, "Hush now, darling, there is always hope." And then John Williams came in with a full orchestra and played the most heart-wrenching, tear-jerking, Oscar-winning symphony that will never be reproduced. And then I made out with my iPod.

I'm a bit in shock at the irony. My iPod stopped working JUST before I took my return flight to Japan (I went back to the US for two weeks this winter). And now just before my homecoming, it's working again. Ok, it's not REALLY ironic because I bet if I had plugged it in two months ago it would've worked, but don't spoil the moment.

Anyway, I have about Jrock seven magazines plus about ten copies of Purple Sky Magazine I'm debating whether or not to toss. They're just too heavy and take up too much space. I've been trying to throw out clothes as much as possible, but I can't get rid of my entire winter wardrobe. Although, it would be a great excuse to buy new clothes. Not that I have the funds for that now... Yes, I splurged in Japan. Guilty. Red hand in that proverbial cookie jar. At least I didn't spend hundreds of dollars on a new iPod.
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And then there was one...kind of. [Tuesday
›July 29th, 2008 at 1:00am‹]
Before I get too depressing, can anyone recommend and/or upload comedy albums for me? I want to listen to some when I'm on the plane since I've heard horror stories of those seat screens not working and I can only read for so many hours.

Oh shit, B-T's "Gensou no Hana" came on iTunes. Damn you, iTunes! Making me cry.

Joelle left today, I'm sort of on my own. Sure, I have Kei, but she's always busy with her boyfriend or her godlike "Japanese friends" (long explanation to be made when I get back to the US). But I don't have my partner in crime. There's no one I can rely on to come with me to random places on a whim, watch Doctor Who while drinking juice, or talk shit about the mindlessly boring girls in the dorm. Not that I do that latter. No, not me. I'm planning on going to Harajuku for the last time (this year... keep your fingers crossed), but there's no one to tell me, "Ew, that's hideous, don't buy that." or "Come on, I know you need a worthless piece of B-T merch." And it's brining me back down to earth about this whole going home thing. Sure, I'm going through the practical motions of what I need to get done before I hop that plane, but the whole emotional and mental notion that maybe this IS my last time in Japan for awhile, this IS my last free ride anywhere with anything... I feel so lost.

Truth be told, I don't want to go back to the US. The only thing there for me are the few friends. Since I was able to maintain the same level of contact with ALL my online friends, the real life friends are the only ones I've missed: Katie, Allyson, and Dhakshila. They're only my friends IRL, so the whole online/long-distance relationship doesn't work out with them. (Sorry, Dhakshila, but you're much better to me in person than online, and I'm sure the feeling is mutual.) I've neglected them and I feel left out when I hear they've hung out, but I want to make up for lost time.

As for my family, my dad expects more stability out of me than I can sometimes muster. Yes, I believe I'm quite mature for my age with the occasional insightful comment, but he has to remember that I'm not his third-party psychiatrist. My mom is a whole different story. She doesn't trust me enough to relate to her in any way, and has thus cut me off emotionally. I'm not the enemy so to speak, but I've become the ex-roommate. I'll be happy to see Jason, but I know he has his own group of friends and it's totally uncool to hang out with your big sister. "Hey, guys," he'll say to his friends, "My sister's a little slow, so just... just be cool, guys. No retard jokes, ok?" And I'll come in to say, "I BROUGHT ALADDIN ON DVD SPECIAL EDITION!!!!! IT HAS THE OPTION OF PUTTING THE LYRICS ON THE SCREEN DURING THE SONGS ISN'T THAT AWESOME???" (Yes, I do own that Aladdin DVD Special Edition. Yes, it does have the option of putting the lyrics on the screen during the songs. Yes, that IS AWESOME.)

Then there's the... job. I took the job. Or maybe I should say it was given to me. I'm about 75% excited in that I can't wait to start way, and 25% excited in that will-I-run-away-tail-between-my-legs way. At the very least, it will distract me from my not being in Japan.

GOD! I am such a Debbie Downer. Does anyone even read this depressing shit anymore?
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