|LIVE VICARIOUSLY THROUGH ME!!!
October 10th, 2009 at 10:47pm]
My subject title is pure sarcasm. I really haven't posted anything about what I'm doing. The people who talk to me know exactly what I'm up to, but for those of you who prefer not to speak with me in real time, here's what you've missed on The Sarah (not silverman) Program.
Previously... on The Sarah Program...
I've been going to a bunch of concerts recently (Buck-Tick, Creature Creature, Girugamesh, Inugami Circus Dan, the whole Jack in the Box thing...). And I've bought or am planning on buying tickets for some more (Buck-Tick again tomorrow, Kiyoharu at the end of October, J in December...). But recently, I've found myself dissatisfied with concerts. I understand my sentiments here with bands I don't particularly like or know much about, but the bands I do like aren't stirring that firy passion in belly and loins. There was a time when I probably would've gone fangirl crazy over any Japanese band I happened to see, but now I'm just so jaded by it all. I find it hard to get in the rock spirit, arm waving and head banging. Maybe I've been spending too much time with the cool people in the back. Or maybe I'm just not that crazed fantard I once was. Well, we'll see what happens at B-T tomorrow and the other two I have planned. (I plan to flash J. I'm not even kidding. It will be terrible and trashy, but I don't care.)
My job is cushy. I have a 50 minute commute, arrive at 9:15, sit at a desk and watch youtube when I'm not teaching, teach, and go home at 5:15. I'm not saying it's easy. You do have to have that certain type of personality to teach and you either got it or you don't. For those you who don't know, I don't teach at a school. I teach at a tax firm as a regular employee of the nearly 700-strong company. My students are mostly upper management in the private classes and junior/senior staff in the group classes. Their levels range from basic to extremely advanced English. I have one student whose English is better than mine, yet he feels that his English "sucks." Why is it always the people who are the best at English who say they suck? My worries with this job consist of what to do with certain students, but mostly something kind of silly. I'm probably one of the youngest people in the company. My private students are all over 35 at least. I can't help be wonder if they feel resentment that some snot-nosed kid is teaching them when they're very important people in the company. I could be exaggerating my feelings here, since I DO look older than 23 according to Japanese people.
I don't think my students know my age, but the other two English teachers do. I doubt it bothers Jason, who is a 32-year-old, half Japanese man with a wife and a step-daughter who is 12 (awkwardly found all this information about when we went on a business trip and had a few beers). Mark, on the other hand, seems to be a tad resentful. He's almost 40, lived in Japan for 8 years, and has been teaching for longer than that, and basically has the same position as me. I have a little teaching experience, but that's a piss in the ocean compared to what he has. We get along and I recognize his position as being higher than mine. I wouldn't venture to guess that we're paid pretty much the same, but I still surrender much of the decision making to him.
Then there's the whole matter of HOW I got the job. I'm not going to post about it here, but I do have to tell little white lies here and there. I don't feel comfortable doing it, but if I told the truth, I know they would think less of me. The only people who know the truth are quite high up and don't indulge in petty gossip amongst the lil' people, so I don't really care.
As I mentioned before, most of my coworkers are much older than me. It's hard for a single, recent college grad to find things in common with a married lady in her 30's. I sometimes go out for mini-nomikai with the other English teachers, but we don't do it very often. I've been hanging out with people from Soka University, but they're all busy. Mina from Bulgaria came back to Tokyo to study for a year, which is AWESOME. Other than that... well, I've been having a rather complicated fling. Long LONG story short, I'm kind of seeing this guy who has a girlfriend. I knew he had one, but I just found out she's in Tokyo (she's Austrian and I thought she was in Austria). I'm not sure what's happening with all this, but I like the guy, so I'm not going to stop being his very special friend if he's ok with it. *massages temples*
And that's what you've missed. Other than that, I spend most of my time in front of the computer talking to people in the US. Sad, I know. Sorry to disappoint you, but Japan isn't the Land of Milk and Honey.